today was super fun. business wasn't too bad, but not too rushed either. we practically played burger burger and murderer the whole night XDDD
it was damn funny lah. and as usual, i sucked badly at murderer. i kept on flirting with the wrong people. hoho.
oh and, hmm. superanatomyman actually asked me a question as we were in the fridge. "how come you've been so cool towards me? not like last time, we used to talk. have i been treating you so badly?"
well, if he really wanted an answer, he wouldve pressed on for it. i just went hmm? as in, a have-i-really-been-cold-towards-you? kind of 'hmm?'. i dont really think he deserves an answer anyway. he can roll about sleepless and restless if he really cares about what i think and why.
dont you just love it, playing around with people's feelings? it's like youre a spectator with the best seats in the house. yay, finally, i can say that i've got the best seats so far this time.
+ and i'm all alone again tonight, not again, not again. -
become that horoscope you're reading /it predicts that something good is on its way /oh, and i'll send you all the world, green and blue in a boxthrough the mail /you can open it uphold it right in your handand be glad that it's there /and be glad that you're there /now you can feel all the knots in your stomach /they start to untie /and suddenly it's not so hard to say you're alright
so if you just cast off your doubts /then your lips would answer for you /oh my darlin when you smile /it is like a song and i can hear it now.
<3!
+ lyrics by bright eyes -
do and you get disappointed.
don't and you're unprepared.
ugh. red tide, is so bad. bad. bad. bad. i need to sleep. cake is the loveliest girl. : )
im tired. of talking.
butterflies don't go well with jasmine green tea,
their wings get damp.
it's harder to fly out of my stomach now.
ah shit with the poetry sometimes. my womb is being stupid and my hormones are like drunkards driving into trees/curbs/people - same difference.
i need to shampoo my nails. well, hair. they're made of the same thing you know! im just glad my nails arent curly.
mmm i want orange julius pina colada. da vinci code was pretty good actually. didnt finish even half of the book but my mom did and she said it wasnt as bad as people say it is. i love audrey tatou. first of all, rocking name, and second, she's HOT! her hair was gorgeous man.
but watching it makes me sad cos i went to the museum but at that time we were too late and it was closed already : ( so, we joined everyone else by sitting at the fountains and eating ice cream or sorbets! damn it lah. if not for the time, i wouldve recognised the two opposing pyramid things. damn.
i didnt even get to get myself creeped out by the mona lisa hahaha. still. i was there! woohoo!
but what i like about this story is the whole divine or mortal question. though i do not even believe in Jesus (heck, i even laugh at all those simpsons jokes), its interesting for me because in Islam, he was only a prophet (Isa) and not the son of God. of course in ways he was a much better being than almost everyone else but he was always mortal, thus leading to speculations about magdelene, so on so forth. so if i were a free thinker and had no prior beliefs, i'd say hey why not? Man is Man, and Man have sex, intercourse, hormones. so why not?
either way i say whatev, cause in the end we're all adam's and eve's babies, are we not?
+ i can never find the right kind of phrase -
most recently on youtube ive been watching this series of videos. starring Razor Ramon HARD GAY!
omg lah it's so sick but it's really funny, you can laugh till you tear up and get a hernia. http://youtube.com/watch?v=-aiHJgvlTu4&search=hard%20gay%20ramen
a bit of warning though, it's kind of disturbing so make sure you watch it without anyone with a weak stomach. it's gross, it's hilarious, it's sick. mmm!
oh and yeah, my parents have officially been married for 22 years as of today! woohoo!
oh and i absolutely LOATHE katherine mcphee. what the fuck. she's annoying man. i bet taylor is bummed because his competition is so BLAH. stupid bitch.
oh well. tv is like that. isn't it? oh well, at least there's grey's anatomy and most recently... flame of recca!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! omg it's so old school but so good!!! totally geeking out here, theyre showing it finally ive been waiting for so long *bursts into flame* hahaha.
it's such a classic and it really is so good you can't miss one ep lah. the dubbing is sort of terribly horrendous but what the hey, it's still good to watch : )))))))) it's damn exciting, love the art and the MUSIC! damn, the soundtrack is one of *the* best anime soundtracks everrrrrr. all the bgm are so well composed and varied, im in love. hearts.
but you know what i cannot stand? i cannot stand m.c.ps in the kitchen neither can i stand anyone talking down on me. and... jason started smoking again. : '( but it's his choice and no one is perfect. if it relieves him then that's sad but it's really a physical thing, so yeah. still. : (
+ so why is she getting married on the 25th of April? -
do not mess with me. ok? because i can be very caustic i wish to be. i shall be frank. i can be cool calm collected but i can blow you up into pieces if i wanted to.
stupid bitch.
+ e.t feeds us reeses pieces -
however, i am not looking forward to tomorrow because i have to wake up so frigging ridiculously early!!! the only good thing about it is that i go home early, as in i can see daylight.
sighe. i hate that about 80% of my current blog content is about work work work. it sucks lah. i wish it was filled with tonnes of junk and fun re-accounts of the good ol' days we all used to spend together : (((((((((((((((
i wish we could hang out more often and i wish i was like spongebob. because i wouldn't get hurt or affected so easily because he always has a shield around him, it deflects negativity, absorbs and exudes positivity. that's how i want to be sometimes, but the environment isn't in my favour.
sighe. the worst thing about tomorrow is that im at a station that i havent been at before! but i will have a partner who has done it, so maybe it won't be so bad. if i get fucked it wouldnt just be me haha. but still, im nervous as hell, i hope my partner isnt as clueless as the last station partner i had. omg lah, he's such a dumbfuck.
boy, havent used that cuss in a long while XD
i mean seriously, he's such a bumbling ass. i could try to fully describe him, but it would just be a waste of time. i just need one word. he is..... a dumbfuck.
anyways, today was a rather lazy laid back sunday of a mother's day, esp since we had our mothers day lunch (courtesy of bro who very well should afford once in a while belanja-ing) on friday since my dad was home and not this weekend, and so we spent it at home with a giant chocolate and raspberry pavlova! which i made all in the morning, thank you very much. i even made macademia nut brittle and sprinkled it on top. mom loved it to bits. so did everyone else : )
but you know what i hate? i hate people who do not respect food. who sniff and cringe at something just because its foreign or it looks funny. yeah so what if it doesnt look as good? if it is HOMECOOKED, then its ok to look strange. id totally understand if it was fine dining, but if it is home cooked, then its totally ok. hell nothing is perfect.
the bottomline is.
DONT EVER EVER INSULT MY COOKING, BAKING, OR ANY OTHER SKILL THAT HAS TO DO WITH FOOD. BECAUSE YOU DONT KNOW WHAT THE FUCK YOU'RE TALKING ABOUT. PLUS, *I* AM THE ONLY ONE ALLOWED TO INSULT MY OWN SKILLS, BECAUSE I KNOW GOOD FROM BAD. SO IF YOU DONT KNOW HOW TO TELL THE DIFF BETWEEN ORANGE, MANGO OR SOLID PUS, SO HELP ME OR I WILL MAKE YOU SHUT THE FUCK UP MYSELF. YOU WILL NOT BE ABLE TO HANDLE IT.
there.
+ you keep me high minded -
the thing is, my work partner is also at fault but i have the biggest feeling that the blame is going to be more centred on me for some fucking reason. shit shit shit.
i just hope that im not in deep shit but that's only a fool's hope. thing is, our station (me and said partner) were preparing stuff for today. but there was this certain item that both of us did not do, because one: we were busy doing other things and two: the teacher did not remind us.
ok i know it sounds irresponsible BUT the thing is, anyone else couldve done it as well. and the teacher should have checked for everything by thursday, but obviously did not because then if he had checked earlier, we wouldve been reminded to prepare the item! but no!
it's so called 'his' kitchen. he 'rules' it, he's in charge, so he should check these things. aiya shit lah. i got a phone call in the morning, someone was asking me where i put the stuff and i was like huh? i wasnt told to do it. but i realise the weight of the statement only now. im not sure if she gave them the reason i gave her but if she did then i might be in big trouble because it would imply that one: the teacher is at fault and two: i have no initiative.
shit shit shit. i know this will all be over by the end of the day but still im scared im worried. he might or might not even bring the subject up when the afternoon shift takes over the morning shift but im scared. the thing that i just have to tell myself is to just brace myself for the worst and to just let the guy say whatever.
the thing with this guy is that he is an idiot who is so one-track-minded that he refuses to hear anyone else's reasoning. so the thing to do is to filter your ears. most of the time, you just absorb about 30% of what he says because that might just consist of instructions. the rest of the 70% is just pure bullshit, so there. filter, filter, filter. do not take anything to heart. though im scared if my eyes start to water. because sometimes it's just too frustrating that you cant help it. its more like tears of anger rather than sadness or shock.
oh well. another lesson learnt/going to be learnt. blah. im nervous as hell. its not that i want to share the blame, but at the same time its unfair if it only rained on me and not the other person with me. still, i cant help but feel like it will be directed towards me. isnt it always like that?
and todays gonna be a long day i just know it. i feel like i should just cry now before going so i wont have any tears left later on.
i need to go now. see you if i come back alive.
+ ........................ -
now sundays are just countdowns to the start of work, 24 hours go by fast, by the time lunch ended it was already 2pm, and now its already 630, its going to be 630 am in a few hours which are in a matter of minutes.
i hate to be pessimistic, i hate allowing myself to let time and stupid things get to me. my table is subjected to my tired forehead, everytime i headesk.
still, there is nothing i can do. time goes by fast when you're enjoying yourself. it goes slow when you're not. and yet, i still feel as though its going to take forever to complete the next two months, when the past two have just flown by. it's unfair.
i hate the new place my class and i are working at. it sucks so much. it's ridiculous. it's nonsensical. it's terrible and it's really quite, so , very FUCKING STUPID.
i mean, the whole system there is fucked up. the teacher there is a great big fucking asshole who scolds you for absolutely no reason. he's like an old war dog, you know, the ones who are senile, always reminiscing about the good ol. like,: lyke, war, lyke, hell yeah!
that kind, except in this case it's like, if there's just ONE MEASELY order, he goes bonkers, as if we just got bombed!!! it's like, everyone is cool calm and collected like a bomb, and he just has to go CRAAAAZYYYY and acts as if we had just recieved 1 million orderssss (does dr.evil pinky lift)
its madness i tells you! he can blow up such a small thing out of proportion! its just a few orders, we're all calm and ready, then it comes, and he goes BEZERK!
can you imagine??? it's always a war-zone in the kitchen. always. the simplest things become so frigging difficult because the asshole is difficult. ASS. HOLE. NOTHING BUT SHIT COMES OUT FROM IT.
and so it applies to him, to anyone who is, an 'asshole'.
he shouts at people for nothing! when you're doing something, he will go to you and ask: WHAT ARE YOU DOING?- as if we're not doing anything or we're doing something wrong. like, ZOMGSTFUAMIGONNAHAFTACHOKEABITCH??ONE1ONE!!!!
when im rich and successfull, i shall hire my own people to burn down that bloody building. haha.
+ i'm the chicken, you're the salad, we can make our own dressing... -