john mayer's comfortable just makes me tear up. theres this heavy feeling in my chest whenever i listen to it.
today is probably going to be long and draggy. ive nothing planned. nothing to do. bah.
the drama thing was fun. a bit overboard with the emo but overall it was a good production. obvious effort. yg was fab. small part but hey it was very cool. *claps hands like retard*
damn it. i feel so sleepy. first of all, my aunt is staying over and well... she really, really has a bad snoring problem. secondly, she started sleep talking. -__-; ... then i woke up to pee. and i come back, the door is already opened and the aircon is switched off, just when i want to go back to sleep.
and so i just plop down infront of the com and read rahmadan-friendly material and blog. i dont know what else to do. maybe ill go back to sleep? not good though. hmm. the black shirt im wearing strongly reminds me of edward and alphonse. haha.
+ our love was comfortable. she's perfect, so flawless. i'm not impressed. -
i seriously think miyavi is androgenous. hehehe. he must have been drunk, touching himself on stage. as in real slow... i dunno watching it just knocked the wind outta me for some reason. hahaha. heheh.
anyways.
this stupid anime, godanar i think, is fucking shit. hahahahaha. tits and all oh my GOD the dancing boobies!
it must be a big budget anime, since they need a hell lot more paper to reanimate each bounce of a pair of boobs.
hahaha. and the mechas oh goodness. robot sex. hahahahahaha.
*shudders*
today has been extremely trying, i cannot just write it all here and feel ok. in fact writing things down only makes you feel better sometimes, but thats only because you can think rationally and gain self assurance later.
but most of the time, its just an attempt. felt kinda hurt today i guess so yeah...
+ no hero in her sky -
some idiot had to message me so goddamn early and woke me up completely. i was not done sleeping, but now i dont think i can just slip back to sleep.
i dont feel like going downstairs, because then mama will harp at me to help her. i dont mind, but its too early for this. and she just came back with abang form the hospital, and then she was harping for dirty laundry and oh just the sound of it gives me the chills. shes in her point-point-you-do-this-and-this-and-that mood.
*shudders*
anyways, i think the problem with this person who has too many people fawning over him is that he is waaay too nice for his own good. very misleading, an unintentional bastard.
i mean, if he has no ideas about me, than why say such things? basically he said that i gave him morning laughter/made him happy by just seeing me and that my hair was damn cute. get the picture?
i think he doesnt realise that his comments come out in a way that a girl will think he likes them. i think i am the only girl who isnt having hormonal shots in my school.
and he wonders how hes supposed to clean up this mess. hahaha. he's on his own.
so i dont know, what should i do? play the ps or what... there's nothing much i can do now on the com, unfortunately. hmm.
yg i am so so so sorry for yesterday. i just woke up so i was so groggy. anyways, you know me, i am too picky when it comes to watching movies and i have no tolerance at all for movies like doooooooooooooooooooom. haha. but we can go out for dinner ok!
hey, i think i know the answer tot his question, but i just wanna ask... is it wrong to feel hostile towards a person who seems to like you like you but you dont like them like them? its like, i never minded the person at first, just normal friends. then its like now i just cant stand being in the same radius as him and i just blanch or get pissed whenever he msgs me, even if its just to ask something. which is annoying cos he can ask anyone else. in a way i think im thinking too deep because i dont even know if he likes me likes me, and i think i am too cold.
+ the real folk blues. i just want to feel real pleasure, not everything that glitters is gold. -
today was so so. damn tired. fell asleep immediately after coming home. dunno why i felt so lethargic.
so as i slept, i got like, a billion calls interrupting my sleep. wtf. i was so tired, that i forgot that there wasnt anyone else at home. there was a call and the thing kept on ringing and ringing, and i shouted "someone pick up the phoooooooonnnnnnnnnneeeeeeeeeeeee" then i realised i was alone and wrenched myself away from bed, went to pick up phone, but then the caller hung up as i picked it up. the little shit... just hope the call wasnt for me though.
now that i think about it, i cant really remember most of the afternoon.
hmm. ive the sudden craving for maggi mee. hahahaha. must be because of reading fanfics. and i do have my stash of tofu in the fridge. hahaha.
*yawns. stretches*
just finished reading 27 chapters of a fic in one go. wow me.
+ your aquiline lips, the taste of -
oh well. i just read something so inspiring, it was awesome, and now i've got inspiration and im going to go and write a fic.
BUT. not now. my bro apparently needs to remove an infection that has occured, so im following my mom to go send him to changi. boy. the life of an ns man. hoo boy.
oh, my sis is going in my place. id want to go but i do have school. it starts preeetttttyyyy early. so yeah. im pretty much free now.
okay..... i somehow dont know what to do, other than write. im so bored. haha. what a bastardised rojak of a post.
+ young man, don't hide your clenched fist -
im so bloody hooked on dn.angel. i admit it, its damn shoujo but whatever. its yaoi fangirl fodder. and im just lapping it up. ahh.
i mean come on... why settle for one hot guy and a girl, when you can have two hot guys together right? apparently theres a side character in the book which is also a boy on boy fangirl, she keeps egging the 2 boys to hurry up and shag each other senseless.
anyways im so going to regret reading till this hour. school starts early tomorrow. shite...
read a whole shitload of scanlations, finished reading hmc, read a smexy shikatem and a sexy sexy angsty little narusasu piece. well, when else can i read right? day time is no good for such reading. i might as well eat and be merry and not fast. haha. oh and topmodel was bloody nice lah. i love both girls, so i didnt feel disappointed, though i felt bad for kahlen. gorgeous girl, and i feel for her. but naima is lovely too. so its all good.
+ i see you baby, shaking that ass -
very tired lor.
damn fucking shit hell. its like, no matter how much initiative i take, i am never seen as a leader, nor is my work appreciated, or recognised.
the person who should have to, and be able to convince the teacher of our plans, is plainly unable of doing so, leaving me to finish off what was started and left hanging like a fucking limp dick. and now im the one to straighten it back. sorry i know im being harsh, crude, what have you, dear sir, dear miss. i deeply regret this fucking apalling behaviour i chose to display without any shame, and language i chose to speak.
no matter what, nobody gives a flying fuck on what i do, have done, what i say, who i am. and im just an annoying shit who tries to butt in, eventhough, obviously, no one else present is able to get anything done.
anyways. i am scrambling to look for much needed info, pics, what have you, and i think im the only one doing it and shit, cos frankly, most of the guys dont do BLOODY FAECES, dont do anything.
and 678910? i dont know. 678910, claims to have needed pics, but cannot print them. err, yeah, but survey forms, can be printed? and not the pics? gimme a fucking break, if its moola you're worried about, im a fucking charity worker, ive bought 2 cartridges these few months, which is alr quite a lot since we dont print as much as we used to.
so what is the bloody deal? im scrambling, im ripping my hair out as i type. i already told you, i am fucking talented, i am an amazing mind-blowing multi-tasker.
and i will fuck your heads while im at it.
and i rant because? because no one in question will actually see this annoying angry post? i just want to get things off my chest. and i am sleepy, and i need someone to talk to. thank you so much bills, you are a darling and you made me feel at peace. *kisskiss* to you.
+ OH YEAH SO I'M A CAVEMAN, AND I GUESS YOU'RE THE GHETTO GOD OF TAPDANCING ? if so, wipe that cream off your ass. -
281 was the sweet, but kind of devastating as well.
its like there's all this sweetness, and then it's just...goodbye.
is gaara going to be just another side character now? like after a near-death experience, let him rest and then collect dust? i hope not. i suppose he won't be seen so very soon, not until there is a major major chapter, and even then, he might not be involved.
*is upset*
they should have hugged damnit. forget hug, just throw each other down and shag each other senseless. oh wait. but that would make them exhibitionists (though i wouldnt mind really XD )... so i guess thats not possible hmm.
sometimes i dont know how to react when someone gives me a nice review, and i just cross over to their ff profile and then i find out that they're either pro-bush/red-neck idiots or smth like that. its kind of unsettling and i dunno. i just feel uncomfortable knowing it, but i have to tell myself that hey, this *is* the www, so expect things like that. but still. kind of disappointing as well.
+ i crash unconsciously -
the strokes are such fucktards!!!
i dont know why. i used to love them but now they're just spiralling further and further down. i mean wtf? the other side is just, horrigible. it sounds like absolute crap. julian is a fat fuck.
ok, enough ranting about that. last night(oh noes no more puns please) was fun!!
haha, only my byatch seemed to get splatters. heheh. sayang, you are a MAGNET for these kind of things, seriously. hahah XD sorry!
today started out pretty bad. no, not because of her. wow. anyways, em ara tee. it was delayed, so i thought i was gonna be late, but thankfully, the shit started to move again.
then i arrived and then i just felt this nausea just wash through me. it wasnt pleasant, i just felt so suffocated and kept on gagging but i just went through the prac. it went on for quite a while, but sometimes when im busy i dont think about it.
and then mr hawk. he wasnt in a very good mood today, but neither was i. sighe. i know he never directs any anger or stress onto me or anyone in particular, but i couldnt help but feel a bit sad. and i was feeling sick. bad combination.
i hate seeing him so down. it really sucks. and then said idiot has to go and roll up his sleeves a little bit higher, and im thinking oh my fuck look at those guns. wow. they're not like over the top muscular, but they're just pretty damn perfect.
damn, i seriously wonder how many days of puasa i might or already have wasted away, with such thoughts. HAHAHA. i wouldnt know til judgement day. but til then, i'll just keep on trying my best.
and i cant wait for raya. fandom funds, spoon feeding (literally), here i come.
my classmate has started adressing me as sakura-chan. like, omgwtfbbq? heehee. ok lah, i think its really cute cos like the two of us are the biggest naruto and anime fans/nerds in class. (and now i am absolutely convinced, that the official couple of naruto is narusasu/sasunaru, and that there will be a drama-mama love triangle between them and gaara. yes. they are all boys. young and hot blooded.)
my friend is so cool, though he looks far from it. heehee.
i might be getting my period soon. although i dont wish it to come, sometimes in the kitchen, i do cos it gets so hot and all. but i have METTLE, and im not so easily swayed. strong resolve huh. i wont just chug down a drink so easily man. its disgusting how BOYS dont fast when they should.
aii...i read a very funny and very aww kind of fic last night, and because of that i slept at 2 in the am. but it was worth it :)
HUH??? TOPHER GRACE, is playing VENOM in the next spidey movie??? no effing way!
+ you say it's puppy love, we say it's fully grown -
no school today. i guess i'll be helping ma make cakes. blah.
not so exciting.
aiyooo... the ending of bebop was rather depressing. i suppose i need to watch the movies soon, cos i think the ending didnt really tie up everything... hmm... but i thought the whole vicious-julia-spike triangle was just very cool and goddamn angsty-sexy.
love it. yeah im wierd like that. its a shame julia died.
in the words of faye valentine, she was 'ordinary... the kind of dangerous ordinary that you just can't leave alone'.
sighe. im bored. im currently interrogating this person. wow, he has many flocking after him. and now he doesnt know what to do. hahahahaha.
im so hungry right now. i know i shouldve slept in!!!
i really really want to watch Jack again!!! i miss that movie so much, i cried!!! it was so heartwarming, i love it. it was funny too, and so charming. i wanna watch it again.
one of my fav movies ever. heehee. adults hate sloppy joes! you can fart into a tin can then set it aflame!!!
hahahahahahahaha.
+ i know we had a bad day, and you are so mad at me, that don't mean we have to mope around -
very sleepy though. im totally gonna knock off after bebop and sleep till the late hours tomorrow. ive no school! happiness.
sighe.
found an old cd i burned last time. its fab, got a few songs i thought i had lost forever.
hmm. something is wrong with the keyboard, or its just another fucked up thing of blogger. hmm. this is getting annoying.
bloody shit.
+ himegoto -
he's single. singular. attached, he is NOT.
YOSH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
*rubs hands with evil grin*
when will puasa ever end??? since im fasting, he can't feed me to taste things, and thats not good.
sighe.
oh well. im not sure if any of the days ive fasted actually count. you know me, i cant resist reading some things. hey, i get update mails ok. so sometimes i just take a peek and end up reading things i perhaps shouldnt. hmm. die lah like that. i still have about 2 weeks of puasa to pay back anyway. heheh.
anyways, 2 more weeks to go. yay.
+ I'll embrace your unbandaged wound, we'll walk on together, there's no turning back -
AC was a non-sexual ORGASM.
and I laughed my ass off, teared a little, oohed and ahhed. best thing. ever.
the best thing my retinas have recieved in the longest while. oh my god!!!!!!! it was late at night, so i made a lot of noise but I kept about 40% of my screams of utter joy inside. hahaha. didnt want to wake up the neighbours. XD
everyone looks gorgeous. Tifa is damn pretty lah. I would say she's damn sexy too, despite her clothes in this one. Shes not showing off enough skin. whad de herr? hahah. ok ok im kidding. well a little. hehe.
but seriously she kicks ass lah. she totally busted loz's ARSE. unfortunately i could only detect one of her limit breaks, which was the dolphin kick (ahhh!!! i also detected a few of Cloud's limit breaks as well!!!). but damn she tore his ass. hehe not in any other way but combat horr.
then there's my dearest chocobo boy. *dies of too much swooning*
motorcycle chase. wah lao. its.... just wow. wow. wow.
all the fight scenes. orgasmic. just....very like woah.
haha, reno and rude were absolute idiots and comic relief, but hey, they're adorable like that. although I thought they wouldnt be so kental, because in the game, reno kept on harping on elena that shes so goddamn slow. haha. oh well, they made me laugh my ass off till i teared. elena and tseng appeared at the end. wah!!!
i totally shrieked when the rest of the gang arrived to fight the summon. oh my GODNESS. it was just... sighe.
although i do wish that the story was a little more detailed, a little longer, i understand that maybe the purpose of this movie was to basically tell us how everyone was doing after meteor. also, importantly, that despite the world rebuilding, Cloud still has issues, and so here he overcomes his guilt. hmm... what else.
it also says that you can never let your guard down because there are just too many bad/phsycho people out there, and there is always this chance that sephiroth could come back (the fight scene between cloud and sephiroth was breathtaking). its mainly an opening for interpretation, but at the same time, it feels complete at the end.
In a way, it ends up being mostly about Cloud again. But I have no complaints about that what so ever. it was bloody brill, beautiful, overwhelming.
I am content. Deliriously insanely happy.
+ now is your time. this fanfare plays for you. -
was gorgeous. some parts with (OK CUE GASP!) jude law, were annoying.
yes, annoying. how his character could do such things, is beyond my comprehension.
it was definitely sexy and dark humoured, i think clive owen was the best character and actor in this entire movie.
he was the most sincere character, i think he really loved julia roberts' character. but even if he was sincere he was terribly manipulative but seeing as to how his heart was played around, you cant help but feel justice when he does/says things.
he was effing cool. and the sex chat scene between clive and jude was absolutely effing hilarious lah.
i didnt like jude laws chara. fickle and cant make up his mind. very very selfish. oblivious.
natalie was good. i felt for her, the poor girl.
now for batman begins... it wasnt as bad as i thought, but i still hate katie holmes and i still want to have cillian murphy's kids.
he CILLS me. hahaha. bad pun.
going to aunts for buka. haiya, its like going to school. all the way in bukit. blah.
im thirsty.
i dont see how ppl have their handphones at their hips like, twenty-four-seven. me? i dont. and somehow i regret that cos i had 2 messages on it and both were asking me something! one asked me to call, one asked me for someone's contact no.
shit lah.
oh my omg. i love the latest naruto centre-fold recordings. they're funny as hell. and we know the entire naruto business is in on the yaoi. i know it. :)
+ thank you for your honesty. now ++++ off and die. -
woohoo! bring on the snacky-snacks and drinky-drinks!
tonight we're watching : batman returns. the latest one, with idiotic christian bale. i dont like, wait, strike that, i LOATHE katie holmes, not because she's in such a fako relationship with tom cruise(who is an even bigger idiot), but because she just cant act for nuts. cant stand her fucked up face either. i know, very mean of me, but its what i honestly think. ooh but CILLIAN MURPHY. ok lah, i'll tahan christian bale and katie holmes' HORRIBLE acting for a while.
then its ff vii advent children!!! my dear friend who rocks this world (he's 23 and stayed in cambodia to teach english for a month and is still loving anime) has so kindly lent me his dvd, its in japanesse, but with SUBS!!!!
YAY FOR THE SUBS! I hate dubs. im sure the dubbing isnt that bad, but hey, now I can hear their original smexy voices. and from what i hear from him, there is this girl in school which looks like the movie version of TIFA!!! I hope he's right. I wanna be her friend :)
then were gonna watch CLOSER! yay for THE JUDE. and natalie portman. love, her, but her role in the last star wars ep was horrigible. her lines were so blah.
sighe.
OH MY FUCK CHAP TWO EIGHTY!!!
gaara actually has real fangirls!!! hahaha that's so wicked. see? yeah he was a little crazy in his earlier days, but now that he's a good guy who STILL kicks ass and is the kazekage. heheh. official fangirls! pfft. who needs sasuke man... he is not the only one with an apparent and obvious fan club! XD
i cant wait for the scanlation, although there isnt much dialogue in this chap anyways. still.
HAPPINESS.
+ your favourite fruit is chocolate covered cherry -
soooo angry!!!!!!!!!
fuming mad lah. grr. but wait, lets rant about lost.
LOST, was, so overwhelming. a life is lost, but at the same time a life is born. it just, killed me man. crying like shite.
ok, back to angry angry post.
its like, my parents totally slack now that their children are all grown up. yeah i know since im able to i should help, but dont give me bullshite 100000 feet high. chores are their duty too.
cos we were just having a drink and shit, then my dad picked up a bowl form the table and asked who's one was it. i admitted that it was mine, just i havent gotten down to washing it. then he was like : aiya you. you ALWAYS do this.
i mean, WHAT THE FUCK. then as calmly as i could, i said: what? why is it always me? its mostly abang who does this. i wash things that arent mine too you know. last night *I* was the ONLY ONE who cleaned up the whole table, and kept allll the left overs, and washed dishes that were not mine.
bloody fuck. im just glad this didnt happen in the day or I might as well forget fasting and eat roasted suckling pig and drink till i get totally smashed.
egads i fucking hate this lah.
and the thing about cleaning the rooms. its my fucking room. if you dont like what you see then dont come into it, cos the only reason you come in isnt to say HI but to just blast away and ask us to clean it anyway.
and then, if its messy, and i have to put away my things, just where the fuck do i put them so that the room isnt messy? it HAS to be on the floor, somewhere. even if i pile things neatly, the parents still have something to bitch about. like: WHY ARE ALL THE BLAHBLAH HERE?!
so I assume that I should put my stuff where? In MID-AIR OR UP YOURS, WHERE THE SUN DON'T SHINE?
GOD FORGIVE ME.
this is why, when my mom asked me to clean up, yi gang, i didnt want to because of this shite lah. then, just because I seem to be the tardiest one of the bunch, doesnt mean that the mess is always mine. i hate it that just because something is messed up, its automatically ME. OK?
so if its messy, it must be mine huh? it isnt my shit lah. sometimes i just feel like throwing everything away so there wouldnt be any chance of any mess at all.
id throw out the whole contents of my room out my window, onto the truck outside. then id jump from my window into the back of that truck and ask the guy to drive away, full speed ahead.
im tired. i need some fucking rest.
+ I believe your promise. It's too hard to give me courage. -
kat hudson is lovely lovely wow. she's absolutely gorgeous. if you were to ask me who I thought was hot and of the same gender, it would be her.
lovely hair, smexy lips. cute high apple cheeks. nice skin. hot bod. honestly. gorgeous she is. she's got this orgasmic look lah.
watched skeleton key. it was pretty good, although its more of a shock thing rather than scare. but i liked it. the ending was, to me, unexpected. very freaky, this hoodoo thing. yes, hoodoo, not voodoo.
i loved the fact that it was set in new orleans. the whole suthern charm, the jazzy jazz and blues thing. lovely. gumbo. haha.
and yes, after the lesbo vibe, you can let go of your breath. I'm still straight and absolutely spazzing at PETER SARSGAARD!!!!!!
wow. i didnt know he was in it until he entered the sceen. oh my toot. he is still as smooth and smexy as ever. i loved him in this cos he pulled of that whole suthern charm so damn well. he's a really great actor, i might even consider watching flight plan. he's in it too!!!
sighe. today was rather fun! im not so looking forward to tomorrow, cos im just lazy but at least school ends pretty ok-early.
only 19 days to raya. me thinks. im happy. im not sure whats going to be the first thing i ever buy with my raya moola. sighe.
im having a slight headache now.
+ were you born to resist or be abused? -
its only been less than an hour and im already experiencing the paralyzing effects of eating too f ast. T__T
puasa has been great, but admittedly a bit of a strain, more than usual since im always surrounded by food.
sigh. i... i am not, a morning person. at all. hopefully from today onwards, my mornings will not be fucked up anymore. seriously. today was... oh well, its hard to just sum it up.
anyways i only hope for the best from now on. i almost almost almost cracked. i almost. i was actually considering talking to someone whom I actually have a decent amount of trust in. if I were to spill my guts, it would be to that person cos I know he wouldnt judge. but the problem would be that he's friends with *&^%^&*)@#$! as well, so perhaps thats the only thing holding me back. but since we ironed a few things out, i guess i dont see the need to speak to him anymore, or at least for now.
when i mean iron things out, i mean by only a mere fraction, but its ok enough. maybe i am selfish. maybe i am cold. ive already realised that but I still will not allow (*(@@*&!*^% to think that Im the only one at fault. it takes 2 i guess. so yeah. whatever. dont wanna talk about it anymore.
today was rather fun. didnt actually have the marathon but I finally got to watch kitty! ladder 69. eh no, wait. 49. haha. *L*
sighe. i could feel the sting. the burrrrrrrn in my eyes. tried not to tear up lah. so paiseh.
i wonder how it feels, to KNOW that you're dying, and in a few minutes or less than an hour no less. does life really flash before you? id think so.
sometimes its rather sad, that the easiest way for you to attain a higher rank is to die. what's the point right? perhaps its the least ppl could do for you. but still. i hate patronization.
ahh my tummy aches!!!
AHEM! Hello my larlinnggggggggggggggg.
Meeee eeeeeeeee aaa aaand, Misses, Missessss Vuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu.
I still keep the kitty cat you gave me. She's sitting on my computer screen. *kisskiss* to you :3
+ hard luck woman -
bebop as so sad lah. sort of a tear-jerker at the end. aiyo.
i teared larrr... it was that heart-breaking. T__T
only two eps left. what am I gonna do after that??? *dies*
im boredddd. so you can tell? you're prettyyyy sharp.
so....i hope you all are enjoying your holidays. i still have school. im fasting. i cant taste anything im preparing. does that call for a hallelujah? i think not. but what to do. i am a cold, stubborn bitch who cant bother to message people to tell them that im having absolute shitz.
im a mean girl who constantly has a scowl on her face for absolutely no reason at all.
i stomp on poor, weak little fragile hearts. just because.
i am the wicked witch of the east. live with it biznatch.
hmm. i wonder what i should be doing during my non-holidays. *goes of to ponder*
ok. done. heehee! go to school lor! haiya. just think about it, you'd be bummed out too wouldnt you?
i cant wait for raya. cos then i can go to school and enjoy it. i have about half of my results back. i did pretty good actually. better than expected. booyah.
i really hate it when i remember a particular song, which leads to remembering how the album is lost. shit lah. i cant find it anywhere!!! #$*&#$&#^@#)@&@#*^!!!!!
damn it.
+ latin simone, que pasa contigo -
today was pleasant but it was an effed up morning.
its like, i was still having the afwul shitzzzz, so i like was half an hour early but i made a beeline for school, full steam ahead while trying not to have any accidents XD
then its like here i am sick and feeling shit awful, when &(^&%&&84#$#$)(&^$&*( smses me and says I meet you at blahxinfinity
and then i tell her sorry im alr at sch, cos im so sick and need to go badly.
then she like gets mad(???????????) and totally DISREGARDS THE FACT THAT I AM SICK AND MIGHT POSSIBLY PISS/SHIT MYSELF ON THE STREET HAD I NOT GONE STRAIGHT.
she said why you ignore me? would it hurt to sms me?
its like hello.....the only thing on my mind, was to get somewhere safe from harm and that could provide me solace and solitude to do my biznezz.
and she couldnt even understand that?! i mean give me a fucking break.
then to just stop what could posibbly be an all out bitch fit (which I think I deserve to have!!!) i just apologised (SEE!!! WHY MUST *I* ACCOMODATE?! IM SHITTING MY ARSE OFF HERE!!!) and said that it didnt cross my mind, yadayadayadayadaya.
bloody tap dancing jeebus, homie! (ok..........wtf? i thank i found maself in da ghetto ere..)
+___+;
tmr is gonna be fun!!! NAH RU TOE MARATHON (which includes some eps I missed since I had to return the boxes)!!!
ok. I must go out, and ninja in the night1oneone!...one.
+ unforgivable but I forgave you (yes, sappy but I love that song ok) -
never eat seafood at night if you have school or work the next day. unless you dont mind paying some money for medical consultation, then go ahead. don't risk it. ever.
i had and am still having the worst stomach ache ever. it really really hurts.
im the only one suffering cos im the only one who tried to help finish and not let the mussels go to waste. DAMN!
hehe stits, i think ive fixed the nav problem right?
i am so hungry. im not surprised or shocked, but a few ppl in my class who are SUPPOSED to be fasting, well...werent fasting so there. no shocker but i must say i have to bring extra tampons or sanitary pads for them huh. but wait! i thought they were of the male species...hmm...
cosmiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiccccccccc.
+ you make the knees of my bees weak -
accept your fate in the dead of night!!!
or.....brace yourself for cramps and abdomen pains while fasting away.
i hope the bismag i took works.
everyone else is up now and getting ready for school/camp. while i am here blogging after sahur!
wahahaha. kukuku.
oh my god. sorry dear God. it is like, sahur time, bulan puasa, and here we are in the morning, discussing about Kishimoto-sensei(creator of Naruto and all its wonders). and we were saying how deep inside he is the yaoi-fanboy and he really, REALLY! wants to make the series a yaoi one, but alas, you can't do that openly. you can have the re-mix, but then again, not everyone is into the yaoi and it could or would possibly change the public's views of his creation drastically.
yeah and then we were saying that he so wants to make naruto and sasuke a canon, public couple, ubt then naruto gets confused with his feelings towards gaara, then he gets comforted by none other than....
NEJI!!! HAHAHHAHAA.
if not, shikamaru! hahahaha.
yes, we are still fasting. kukuku.
+ go to sleep already lah!-big sis -
check yourself. then come back if you can actually admit your faults.
if you can't well then sorry. and you keep on asking, moaning and bitching about not being able to snag a bitch? have you seen yourself through someone else's eyes?
sighe.
Indelible Sin (translation)-
theres only so much i can do. ns man syndrome.
sighe. marr, only you and i currently, will unestannn...
such is life.
and i realised that i had spelled syndrome wrongly just now!!! HAHAHAH.
err...the outing was....ok. thankfully it wasn't too bad. although i think next time round hopefully there will be more people coming along.
it wasnt as akward as i had expected but i was still like on the edge of my seat.
the way he speaks is pleasant but wierd, i cant really understand why i find it so strange. its strange because i JUST can't describe it.
semi formal, but comfortable. squeaky. yep. sorta. anyways, it wasnt so bad but i fully hope he goes all the way in courting the girl he likes. : )
damnit i love that get yourself high video!!! its awesome!!! mad cackling ensue.
ok then my eyes are tired.
+ if it isn't you then there's no point -
ok i am nervous lah cos i gotta go out tomorrow with #$&#)@&&$_@(3. not that said person is a vulgarity. i just wanted some variety in masking people's identity on the www.
hahaahahhahahaha.
OH NOES.
im nervous lah cos i dont think person is bringing any friends along. ohnoesohnoesohnoes.
i am not shopping partner material!!!!! *tears hair out*
person is going to regret going out with me really. haha. oh well. cant say i didnt warn.
OMGOMGOMGOMGOMOGMOGOGMOGMOGMOGMOGMOGMG
*dies*
*revives*
*cries*
omgomgomgomgomgogmomgomg!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
iv never been so happy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!. oh my GODDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD!!!!!!!!!
HE'S ALIVEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
tomorrow is going to be a complete drag. i have 2 pracs on the same day?!!!
uber unfair. damn.
fasting has been fun. really! honest. I love fasting as wierd as it sounds. dinners always seem funner. more special eventhough they're normal fare.
its fun. i always wait for the guy to say the blissful word: SEKIAN.
hahahahhahaha. that always ends his er..speech or something for the day, then we break fast! woohoo.
life hasnt been exactly exciting. had a few really irritating bumps in the road. not planned at all. someone fell and leeched herself onto me, like a bird shitting on my head.
haha.
also, i might be going shopping with this person for another person's bday gift. i dont like akwardness so im not so looking forward to it since i dont know that person very well. alas, i agreed to go. XD someone helpppp. ta-su -ke-te!!!!!
my sis wanted the last chicken pie. i told her she could only have it if she beat me, best 2 out of 3 at narutimate. haha. we didn't play in the end. i wouldve won anyways. heh.
my bro says i am a traitor to naruto. hah. i am not. I AM NOT!!! (annoying bugger(HAHA) is next to me).
i am still faithful to the manga. i love it love it. the anime? right now, not so good.
but if you dont know by now, i have always liked a whole lot of other series' but you just didnt know it either.
i hate racists, music racists, anime racists. but haha. i am not ashamed to admit that i am an anime racist so there. haha.
my sis once insulted this anime infront of her friend who was like, the greatest fan of it hahahaha. he was so offended.
bugger.
HAHA. we were watching the simpsons and lisa said buggery. my dad was so outraged. hahaha.
BUGGERY!
hah. tomorrow is going to be bad. i know it. i can feeeel it.
its hard to type when someone is just next to you. haha.
so i'm going now. off to slumber. i bid you farewell.
+ this unerasable sin -
where did my sahur gooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo?????????
yes, pangs of hunger. dont laugh at me lah syafiq.
sighe. i think im going to play the ps2 after this. for i have nothing else to do now. i wanted to search for scanlations but but but it's really irritating once you can't find what you want of course.
ok now i know what new game/s to get. fma. fo sho. yes yes yes. heehee. travelling through memory lane. im dling/recieving really old school anime songs that i have lost virus after virus. sighe. it feels so nice to get back what you've lost. some things really mean a whole lot to you and it hurts when you lose them, no matter what they are. a song file. a friend. anything. its not nice to say it's a small or meagre thing. thats not true. as long as it made you happy or meant something it doesnt matter what it is.
man....my stomach is making funny noises. embarassing noises. grumble.
+ this world is still afloat -
blogger ate my post lah crap.
just read chap278 its so friggin sad lah. *goesoftocry*
" a whole three years...I trained as hard as I could...and look at me, not a single thing has changed in these three years..."
arrghhh so sad. helplessness.
being and feeling so helpless and hopeless. its really sad...poor naru-chan.....*wipesawaytear*
+ your best friend always sticking up for you even when you know it's wrong -
buka was fab. like really. we had tomato, butter and basil pasta, parmesan breaded chicken chop, quiche and fruit tartlets.
X3 X3 X3
today was lovely. hey, if some certain people or persons exclaim the hallelujah and that jeebus oh-so-loves them, then hey, i can say that my God loves me too because today it rained, i didnt have to suffer the heat from the sun. i had a fun, stress-free class. it wasnt scorching hot. see? first day of puasa was so so so great.
ok enough of that...its teetering towards religion. hahaha. too heavy lah that subject.
today was just so fun lah, and im really really glad that i had the balls to tell *coughcough* that i wanted out on the proj.
cos after i saw *coughcough*s mad mad skillzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz, i was so like....*coughcough* is so...
DE NE NE!!!!!!!!!!
wahahahahahhahahahaahaha. GABRAH. MEREPEK.
*shakes head*
i mean, some things are just too easy to screw up you know?
anyways, it was fun today.
im thirsty............but malas to go down.
ok. i think im regretting speaking to this person cos now, were sharing a gift, and we have to buy it together O_o;;;;;;;; +___________+;;
akward silences, here we come.
+ these excuses, how they've served me so well they've kept me safe, they've kept me stuck, they've kept me locked inside myself -
we had peecha for dinner.
tomorrow is the start of puasa.
excited but somehow dreading as well since i have loadsa pracs. haiya.
hmm so today. was quite ok. better than expected :3
i was so bored that i managed to draw edward!!! and and and it actually turned out quite nice so maybe if i have time to use someone's scanner, i'll post it if i dont find anything too horribly wrong with it XD
the funny thing is, it's on the back of a printed example of the halal certificate.
HAH.
whee. made a few icons these past few nights. so shiok.
sighe....................im sorely tempted to venture through the world of elricest.....but........well, of course not during this month!!! but at all.........hmm. i shudder.
haiya im really dead beat lah. tmr i think i might as well wake up for sahur, so i shall retire pretty soon since i really should.
err...the latest naruto reminds me of cooking master boy. egads. i shudder to think. how can someone just chuck a whole, live turtle into boiling curry????? inhumane! wtf is going on???
though neji is getting more attractive to me, that is not good enough!
+ i'll teach you all this in eight easy steps -
content. wheee.
i guess the situation or non-existent situation cant be helped. i dont think we'll get into each others lives any deeper than or further than the classroom. i guess i can take it. im not a needy bitch.
ok. so today was fun :3
very relek wan kone..
heehee. sighe. very full. very sleepy but very happy.
my eyes look darker i suppose. dunno. i love bulan puasa. i love bulan rahmadan. i know im no saint and i sure sin a lot, but i try my best and i love this month. its very refreshing lah. and i love to buka with the famiglia and my other relatives.
i love it. the best thing is you try your best to refrain from bad things which isnt bad. you lose some weight. you get moola in the end. you have nice dinners. its all lovely. happy days right? hehe, so jamie oliver :3
i hope he and jools dont divorce. it will be very sad. poor poppy :(
i hope they make it. it would be a damn shame lah.
sighe. only thing i dont like is that i must avoid some things lah. like, i cant read fics i guess. how sad. *cries*
i cant use my jedi mind tricks (i cant curse under my breath or think bad thoughts about some people!!!)
i love ryuusei. its not the usual rock/angst fare. its very sweet and simple. one of my fav songs of the series. ever.
sighe. porno graffitti is damn good lah.
+ if it isn't you then what's the point? -
i dont know. really, honestly.
does it mean anything to offer me a sip from the can in which you have set your lips upon?
hmm.
does it mean anything when sometimes we don't even speak but we feel as if we had a rift? i dont know. its just that, there was this very stressful time for me, and it's like we didn't talk at all. maybe i scared him. maybe he knew when to back off. but honestly, i hope i didnt scare him...he asked me if i was alright and of course i say yes. but haha he gives me this fake look of terror. he knew i was upset.
he's a joker. he's a charmer.
he's caring. he's older. he's like a brother?
i really hope not.
: (
maybe i think waaaaaaaaaaaaaay to deeply into this. its only me who's thinking about it..i wouldnt know what's in his head. he's older. he's probably had a few girls in his life. is he even a virgin? i shiver at the thought hahahahhahaha.
why bother with me huh. its quite sad.
i really wanted to marry viggo mortensen, but he's too old and too busy for that :(
oh well. i didnt go to school looking for someone so i guess im just being rather silly.
*headdesks*
hmm.........jamie cullum and the strokes new albums coming/came out alr. hmm...i love the strokes, but julian can be such a SWINE. HAHA. sweaty drunk ass he is. damn. i missed the upload someone generously uploaded. sighe. but juicebox got so many mixed reviews so i duno.
cant wait for cullum's catching tales. though i really dont get the title. hmm.
hmm...but things at sch are not so bad at all now. yep. thats nice.
im supposed to get ready for dinner hahaha im still sitting here blogging in my skivvies. harhar.
hahhahaha i love the twinkle song Aruna!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! thanks for sending that, it really made my day :3
+ not so really you and I both anymore -
but thankfully tmr's lesson is late so i dont have to wake up at the ass crack of dawn.
tired. stressed. but quite satisfied cos i changed my layout and i finally got down and wrote my first for a very long time and yeah its out alr. *waits nervously for reviews*
sighe. a bit pissed with quite a few ppl. brother lah. *she* lah. haiyo. how like tt.
its hard to say anything without hurting others. some people take things too personally or to heart to much.
and then i might be cast as the villain. not surprising eh. i probably look like a great one to most already. i just dont know if they really do see me in that way.
anyways.
i dont care that edward is younger. he has an amazingly nice butt. the animators love ed XD they gave him a lovely butt. yes. its the kind you just wanna smack, on impulse or not X)
hahahaha. my brother brought back the cd that he's sharing with a friend. britney spears greatest hits. omg.
hmm... since bills told me smth interesting, im really itching to start sketching. heehee. i want/need my fandom funds lahhh.............
i dont know why but i am the only one who seems to think that mai yamane is a man. but she is a she. bah. another case of X. and i love the seatbelts. its quite crazy lah the band. they wear seatbelts when they jam and record. wow. hahaha. mad. but i love em.
when is an honest opinion really honest and not a PERSONAL opinion? can you tell? i dont know really.
when can you tell if someone doesnt need saving? doesnt WANT saving?
difficult huh.
despite? you mean eventhough right? eventhough? you mean 'you're ugly/stupid' but it's ok right?
really. watch what you say. i have arms, legs, eyes, heart. fists and a tounge. they can cause some damage though im not sure its as much as youve caused me.
+ pretty when you cry. i like it. the sadist part of me. -
one of my latest obsessions. erhhem. sighe. meet Colonel Roy Mustang.
im not too good in doing my own layouts but i try ^w^
i planned on altering the image further, which i did, but then blogger is a bitch and the page will have a big white gap i dunno why. so this is it for now.
im not looking forward to tomorrow. she hasnt indicated if she is ok with me not doing the stupid proj togethe. while it shouldnt matter, as its my decision and she should respect that, i cant help but feel uneasy.
bah.
+ the hope that starts the broken heart -
spoilers are like drugs!!! you know theyre bad but you go ahead anyways and get hooked oooooh im mad with myself.
i feel so sad when i see all the evens that happen later on aiya.
hari raya, come sooner!!! i want my fandom funds!
+ go on with your life. you have legs don't you? -